Everything She Wish She Could Have Said To You When You Left Her
When all was said and done, it was very happy to watch you go. I was glad that you were leaving and it gave me so much joy to see you walk away.
Although what you did to me hurt me so much, I knew you had to go because we were not good together; ours was a toxic relationship. Things between us did not stay, especially the second time we got together. It ended so fast. But for me, I was glad because I just wanted everything to end between us. I wanted to forget you and move on.
I did not want to think about you at all nor the things that you did to me. I just wanted not ever to have to deal with you again, so I never said the things that were choking me that day. I just let you walk away. But I’m going to say it. I’m going to let you know the things I said I would tell you.
Here’s what I wanted to tell you before you left me.
1. I WISH THAT YOU WOULD SHOW RESPECT TO THE NEXT GIRL THAT YOU DATE.
You never respected me at all. If you did, you wouldn’t have done the things that you did to me. You would not have lied to my face even when you knew that I knew the truth. Doing this just showed me that you had no respect for me and that you were still childish. You need to grow up. Making plans to meet up with another girl whom you hadn’t told that you already had a girlfriend was another sign of your disrespect for me. You know what, I was never angry with her. No, I was angry with you. I was angry with you because you deceived her, you deceived us both, and we deserve better than that. So, in your next relationship, I hope that you learn to respect her by not telling her lies and cheating on her.
2. I HOPE THAT YOU DON’T PHYSICALLY HURT THE NEXT GIRL YOU DATE.
Although you never hit me enough to send me to the ER for stitchings or to give me visible bruises, you still physically hurt me. It’s true that I never had to use makeup to cover up any bruises on my face or stay at home because I had a busted lip but it still did not erase the fact that you physically hurt me. I did the worst thing that I could have done; I tried to make an excuse for you. I tried to forgive you because you were drunk, but right now I know that there is no excuse for your behavior. You shouldn’t have manhandled me like that, and I shouldn’t have tried to make an excuse for you.
No one should be dragged around and shaken violently like you did to me. No one should feel as afraid as you made me feel when you manhandled me. I hope that you would never treat another woman like that.
3. YOU STOPPED GETTING INVOLVED IN MY LIFE, AND IT AFFECTED ME.
More and more I had to give excuses to everyone I know for why you did not show up at important events and dinner dates. It became embarrassingly easy to make up excuses for why you would never be available for me. Soon, we had almost no contact, and we drifted apart. Your continuous absence in my life soon broke me.
What hurts the most was that you didn’t even notice that you weren’t there for me at all. It got so bad that I had to get other people to take over your position in my life.
4. I KNEW IT WOULD NOT WORK OUT EVEN WHEN YOU WANTED TO GET BACK TOGETHER WITH ME.
You came to me making so many promises and begging me to get back together with you, and I agreed. I really shouldn’t have ever agreed. It was one of the biggest mistakes I have ever made. We tried to work through our issues and even while we did that, I still couldn’t fully believe you. I didn’t want to believe it because I had had an experience with you before. You tried to make me feel sure of this relationship but I just couldn’t believe you, and I was right not to.
Then you broke my trust a second time, and you didn’t change either, you just kept on breaking my trust and never looked back. It was the last straw. I could not get over it. In your next relationship, I sincerely hope that you learn that cheating on someone and breaking their trust is a rotten thing to do and that you would never get away with it. You can’t have a girl at home and another girl outside. It doesn’t work that way. You can only have one. I should have never said yes the second time; I knew it would not work anyway.
5. I HOPE THAT YOU ACKNOWLEDGE THE MISTAKES THAT YOU MADE AND LEARN FROM THEM.
My biggest wish for you is that you find someone. Someone that you can have total happiness and contentment with. I hope that when you find her that you would treat her the way she deserves, with respect and love. I pray that you one day get into a relationship with a girl who would not want to snoop through your messages and your chats because she trusts that you would not cheat on her, a girl who would not have to constantly call you because she is afraid that you would be cheating on her. I hope that you get into a relationship with someone who is never going to be afraid of you, drunk or sober. I hope they you know what you gave up when you cheated on me and walked out the door of my life. Most of all, I hope you really do learn from your mistakes and not repeat them on another girl so that you can have a happy relationship.
Even though it hurt that you cheated on me and broke my trust, I’m glad without you; I would never have discovered how strong I am and what I truly want out of life.